Today I had a meeting at my school with my principal, my mentor and a student consultant. I've been talking about leaving school, I don't like to say quit school, and they wanted to know why. Well, right now it just feels like I'll do a better job working instead of going to school. I've dropped out from three different schools, and still I don't feel joy when I go to classes all day and just study. It doesn't make you more dumb if you feel that you can't take school right now. It just feels like they can't teach me anything if I don't put my heart into it, and I want to put my heart into working. Like working with my band. A job on weekdays and maybe some evening classes and some classes on the weekends if that's possible? It just feels like my thing right now! If I can't put my heart into something, it gets worthless in my eyes. Well, of course I do stuff that I don't put my heart into! Like helping my father with the dishes and important stuff that has to be done. But if it's about me, it has to be something I love, or it feels like I'm wasting my own time!
I've been practicing with my band for an hour today! It should have been longer, but we just couldn't find a working bass and a working guitar! And I couldn't find my favorite sound on the synth(?), so we didn't have a very good day! But we did the best out of it, like we always do, and it worked out fine eventually! :)
Now it's around half past two at night here in Stockholm, Sweden and I'm going to spend some time infront of the computer talking to friends that can't sleep and updating my facebook, hihi, have a good day/night! ♥
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